Iāve been so lost in myself lately that I honestly just remembered that I had an audience here looking out for me. It dawned on me that loyalty has an expiration date, and it just made sense to appreciate you for being a great part of this innovation.
Someone who values you will never put themselves in a position to lose you. In as much as I run short of things to say, I even feel like Iām not making a bit of sense; a part of me feels indebted enough to have you to myself.
Sometimes I worry that I shouldnāt speak openly about mental health experiences and tips because I havenāt āhad it the worst.ā But I know I need to shake myself out of this, as mental health and navigating oneās relationships with others are not something that should be compared or even can be compared. It affects everyone differently, but talking about it, in all its ālevelsā and forms, is what will encourage others to seek help and open up about their feelings.
Let me start by saying Iāve always been a bit of a worrier.
Even as a child and during my early teen years, I endlessly worried about the silliest of things. I felt so insecure and struggled to come out of my shell in front of people. But it wasnāt anything severe or necessarily out of the ordinary. In fact, I think everyone experiences these feelings to a certain extent.
My insecurities are not limited to these but I feel these compounded them to a fault;
I didnāt want anyone to look at me talk ā because I thought my not so good dentition made me ugly and invalid (You probably wouldnāt even see it lol, I was like that).
I was insecure about my looks especially my edges(hairlines) ā because I thought it defined me (I mean, almost everyone had good hairlines and mine was so scanty, noticeable and distinct).
I struggled to make big and small decisions ā because I lacked confidence in my own abilities and assumed Iād make the wrong one.
I could go on, but you get the gist here. I was simply convincing myself that I wasnāt good enough or that I was unlovable or undesirable, but it was based on nothing but my own negative thoughts and feelings.
But this was actually a good thing. Developing this self-awareness was a game-changer for me; it gave me the power to develop a real understanding of what was going on in my brain, make changes, and slowly challenge my negative thoughts into more positive ones!
Iāve made some great progress in terms of overcoming low self-esteem in the past couple of years. Iām still not the most confident person in the world, but I feel in a much better place in my head than I was a few years ago. I have finally managed to stop my life from being ruled by constant worry, and I have even started to like myself for who I am as a person.
Donāt get me wrong; I still have my down days (doesnāt everyone?!). But what Iām trying to say is that itās totally possible to turn your thoughts around and work towards creating a more positive mindset and healthy way of thinking, no matter how impossible it may feel for you right now.
In my next newsletter, I'll share with you tips that I think worked for me. Till then, I hope you begin to see great value in who you are and do not limit yourself to the circumstances around you or even your insecurities.
Anyway, I hope my story of overcoming anxiety and low self-esteem is relatable for someone out there (sometimes, I feel like simply knowing youāre not the only one feeling a certain way can help so much) and that you can make something out of it. It might not necessarily seem alike, but a part of you may feel this way.
No matter how down on yourself you are currently feeling, I promise things can get better. Love to you all! š